SabbyJ

PROLAGUE When my head hit the pillow, I was instantly sucked into a deep and dark sleep. My mind went completely blank, creating a wonderful silence. For a while this state was relaxing and very enjoyable, not that my day had entailed anything new and exciting, but being alone wasn't all that lonely. "I wish I could just slip away from it all and stay here forever…" I thought. "Wish granted." ,came a smooth and seductive voice from behind. "W-who's there?" I stuttered as I whipped around. Behind me was a man, not more than six feet tall, though his hair dangled in front of his face; his eyes glowed a blood red as he looked down at

I feel as though I`m falling. As though the world around me is moving frther and further away and the world I may know to be reality, is nothing but a mere imposter. There has been so much change in my life since I last slipped into the darkness. SO why do I feel so empty? I can still pretend to be happy and I can still put on a smile, but I find myself longing for my relaease. I remember the feeling of the metal piercing my skin and the blood flowing from the open wound. I also remember how this was only a quick fix; a temporary replacment for the pain I felt. My mother used to say it was the only thing I could control and maybe it was. Mayb

I feel as though I'm forever falling. I feel as though the world I know to be relality, is closer to insanity. Why is it that this feeling painful yet, full of hidden pleasure won't ever seem to subside? I ask myself everyday, "Are you happy?" and not once have I found the answer for this question. I long to feel the warm, gentle caress of peace. Yet I only truge further and further away. Each passing day feels like a never ending cycle. So boring and uneventful. When will it change? I get frustrated with myself, tell myself that it's all my fault. But is it? Is it really? Well like many of my other questions, that will remain unanswerd....